I am getting old!

Wait, wait!!  I am not getting old, I am old, 62-years-old as of last week!  YAY!

I don't mind so much getting old.  Life slows down.  No children to chase, cook for, clean up after.  And because I work from home, I have a VERY laid-back lifestyle.  It's good, especially since I am having some health issues right now.

I don't consider them serious.  My ever-present back ache caused by arthritis has been with me for some time now.  And I have sleep apnea, which has been under control with my cpap.  However, I have had this machine for quite a long time and either the machine is not working as it should or my condition has worsened.  UGH!  Can I just say, I am exhausted!  I sleep, I sleep alot.  But I think I am more active and work harder in my dreams than I do when I am awake.  And oh, my goodness, my dreams are like detailed novels.  (That was what finally made me realize that I am not sleeping well.)

A new problem has also popped up.  I believe it is tendonitis in my ankles.  I had x-rays yesterday, so just waiting to find out if that is what it is or not.  But it is quite painful.  Going through lots of ice.

Yep, I am definitely getting old.  This old house has seen better days.  And I know, I have not been the best tenant.  But I have such a wonderful life.  God has blessed and protected me in so very many ways, despite the fact that I have been careless and done so many stupid things in my life.  And He has surrounded me all through my life with such wonderful and amazing folks, from my family and friends to the people I have met in the day to day.

So, despite the fact that I am old and things are starting to run down, wear out, and just HURT, I am happy and content.  God is good.  And the best thing of all, the cream on top of everything, is that I can never remember a day in my life when God hasn't been there, very personally, in my life.  Even my earliest memories are of learning about Him and believing in Him.  Yep, yep, yep, I am more than content, I am happy!  Life is good because God is good.

Love and blessings,
Ev

God is faithful even when I fail!

I'm b-a-a-a-ck!

I know, it has been some time.  I thank God that I am back in the Word.  This weekend was spent rearranging my journal.  Oh, how I have missed it.

It is such a weird thing, and I cannot explain it.  I love God's Word and God so much and yet it has been so easy to be trapped in a life of the mundane, day-to-day trivialities of life.

Nevertheless, God is SO GOOD and kind, when I turned back to seeking Him, He did not turn His back on me.  Though I failed, He is so FAITHFUL!  He has not put me into a time out to punish me, nor filled my study time with words of correction and judgement.  Rather, His Words to me have been of love.

Like the Prodigal Son, it was as though He RAN to meet me!!

Studying the Word, meeting with God, letting His Word marinate my heart has a secondary effect of making my heart so full that I long to share the things I see and hear.  That has me going back to my blogs.

It isn't that I feel that I am that much smarter than others, or that I have anything to share that anyone would be interested in reading.  But for some reason, I feel the desire to share.

So, here I am.  And I am praying that God will hold onto me this time so I don't get distracted by some other emotion, situation, or concern.

Love and blessings,
Ev