Yesterday, I had such a feeling of being on the road to death. And, I think that for quite a long time now I have been just barely alive. I have been very slowly closing down bit by bit. Withdrawing from life and fellowship, from fellowship with God, from the very basics of living, I had come to the point that I felt even physically on the road to death.
But I remembered reading a passage of Scripture in Ephesians:
“Wake up, sleeper,So, I prayed for God's Spirit to rouse me and to raise me up from this death I was living. Can I say, I feel like a new person today?
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.” Eph. 5:14
He is being so gentle and kind to me. And by His Word and His Spirit, He is speaking directly to my needs. He has encouraged me by the words of my daughter-in-love to begin writing again after I had asked him for leading in this area. What a joy it is! I have been so under condemnation in so many areas of my life, including in my joy of expressing myself through writing.
And so, all this is to say that I feel as though I am rousing from this deadness and once again I am feeling a hope and an anticipation for the future. For the first time in a long time, I am beginning to look to a future the beckons to me. "Come on, get up, brush yourself off. Let's go! There is still a lot to do, a lot to experience, a lot to give, a lot to receive!"
