OK, it is "official"! I am moving out! As many of you probably know, I moved to Arizona three years ago with my oldest son, his family, and my youngest son, a total of 6 humans and one little dog. We have all shared one big house as the two new babies were added to our "tribe" until a month or so ago when my youngest son moved out.
Throughout my life, I have never lived alone. After high school, I got married and moved from my parents' home into my ex-husband's apartment. For a part of my marriage, we lived with his family in Amman, Jordan, which was a wonderful experience that prepared me to live with my son and his family. After my divorce, I lived with at least one of my sons. Now it seems that it is time to step out on my own. The thing that comes to mind is the old show "That Girl" from the 60's with Marlo Thomas or "The Mary Tyler Show." I feel as though I am stepping out into a new experience as an single adult woman, an individual, perhaps it is long overdue.
So, it is with a mixture of nerves and excitement that I begin looking for an apartment. (Anybody know of any in the area??) Wow! My very own place, just me and Piper! How exciting! And I hope it doesn't sound selfish, but it will be so nice to just worry about myself for a change. Not that anyone has wanted me to be worried about them, or that anyone has needed me to take care of them for a LONG time. But my nature has been to feel that I need to be there to protect my sons and Amir's family, trying to make everything easier for them. (It could be argued that rather than making things easier, I have only made them more difficult.) Anyway, it is time to entrust their futures to God and to their own choices. And it is time to focus on my future, on my walk with God and His purposes for my life. Whew, it is a little scary. No more hiding behind the needs of others, I have to step out and step up and set my heart on my own future.
So, I ask for your prayers that I can find just the right place that I will LOVE!! I need a place I can afford, but I so long for one that gives me space for study and writing, as well as a place for all my books. I do need a place that will accept my little Piper, and I would SO LOVE a 1st floor place, where I can take her right out side without having to go up and down stairs. Although, my health could probably do with some stairs. I also want to have a washer/dryer in the apartment so I don't have to go out to do laundry. I also need prayers for furniture. Right now I only have bedroom furniture and bookshelves. Everything else was left behind in IL when I moved out to AZ. I would love to find some great garage-sale bargains and eclectic items to surround myself with. I'm not a great decorator, so some items that would give me inspiration would help.
I can't tell you how excited I am and at the same time, how nervous. But I believe that God has some new things to do in my life, and I am so looking forward to what He has planned for me. Again, asking for lots of prayers!
Love,
Ev
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